It's kind of funny how people are capable of doing awful/cruel/horrible things, even to their loved ones. Actually, no. It's not funny. It's stupid. And childish. I wish I could take it back. All of it.
No one can help me with this. This is something I have to do by myself.
No amount of apologies is gonna make this guilt go away.
And I know that. But again, I'm sorry. You deserve better.