18 Dec 2011

There was a time when you sometimes made me feel invincible. Now... I feel invisible.

I know how it is. You can never expect too much from someone. Because the truth is, we want perfection. But that's not possible. Not for humans at least. And for any other creatures made by God. That's what I believe. I guess it's easier said than done to not expect from someone too much since my mind and my heart aren't on the same page at all.

The thing is, I want to be the best. Who doesn't? Especially if it's to prove to that special someone. But it's so difficult to be better, to reach the expectation of that person (or more accurately, my idea of the person's expectations of me) when there are so many things to do at one time.

There are so many issues in this world to be dealt with. Injustice is spreading like virus in this beautiful yet somehow corrupted world. The conspiracies going on behind close doors which most people are unaware of. The gullibility of many making it easy for the media (main and alternative) to tell lies.

As quoted from the of the anti-Semite and German communist who was also a devout follower of Adolf Hitler,

If you tell a lie big enough and keep repeating it, people will eventually come to believe it.

And yet, the thing that I'm affected about most in this very moment  is my "girl problems" albeit they don't even qualify as problems. How selfish. The worst part is, there probably are many others like me. 

Sigh... No wonder this world is in a bad shape.